Change is difficult for me, and 2014 has had lots of changes for me – some positive, some negative.
In April, a trip to Arkansas for my niece’s wedding was bittersweet. Weddings are filled with changes as one is losing a relationship but at the same time gaining another one. While helping with Lisa’s wedding preparations, I managed to move my right knee a certain way and was in excruciating pain – so much so that I went to an Urgicare medical facility on my birthday (and I rarely go to doctors). Having to use a cane at the wedding and a wheelchair at the airport was humbling.
I had been asking God how I was going to get my yard work done, which I enjoy doing, but knew I couldn’t. One Saturday I was overwhelmed and humbled to find my front lawn mowed, bushes trimmed, and weeds pulled.
Anyone who knows me knows that I rarely ask for assistance, so that has been another change. It has been a very humbling experience to have others “wait” on me or do things for me that I usually have done for myself.
Even though I know I need to slow down, I find it difficult to do so (I’m not that old, am I?). All of these changes have caused me to turn more to God, for He knows what lessons I need to learn, and especially that He is in control. Jeremiah 29:11 says “For I know the plans for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” This verse has been impressed on my heart even more this year. Probably the biggest change is that I have been on the receiving end rather than the giving side. I now understand better when others say that “your actions have blessed me”.
Many major life changes have occurred in my life so far in 2014, but I know God is not finished with me yet. I need to learn to accept these changes and trust Him!